Monday, October 15, 2007

My day got better

I was really draggy all morning; physically and existentially tired, and tired of wrestling. Oddly enough, what snapped me out of it was going to class.

My Monday afternoon class is Christian Theologies of Judaism. It's discussion-intensive--five students and one faculty--and I hadn't finished my reading, but I'd done enough to participate. We had a really lively discussion: sin and how each faith deals with it; theologies of the cross; incarnation; whether what we believe and teach matters, or if it's all down to action. It turned out to be really fun.

Went from there to Evening Prayer; the Daughters of the King chapter here presented a healing liturgy they'd put together. There was time to be individually prayed for, and I had hands laid on me. I can't remember exactly what my friend said, but they were just the right words: about strength, courage, dependence on God, and being a conduit of love for the world. I walked taller, after that.

Exactly. I think I know how the paralytic felt.

All I want to do now is sleep. See the timestamp? I can't, yet--but I'm feeling much better. More alive, more myself, happier than I've been in awhile.



Mother Laura said...

Just came back and caught the last several posts. Thank you for the ongoing sharing of your inner dynamics, even without the details

I rejoice with you and am so moved to hear you consistently opening to grace, and being honest about--but not trapped by--the whole range of your feelings. It is very easy to have this kind of epiphany and then run like heck in the other direction, and I think you are wise to share both on blog and off to help keep you entering into the dynamics.

For me the process of ordination and moving into ministry, and even more the journey since my episcopal consecration this past June, has been all about going deeper into my own transformation, healing, and conversion so I have something authentic to offer in companioning people through theirs. It's not fun all the time but is such a gift. And I know how rich your ability to pastor will be from faithfulness in working through your own stuff and receiving prayer and sacramental ministry from the whole Body of Christ, lay and ordained.

Will continue in prayer for that to grow and deepen. (((hug)))

Kirstin said...

I'm floored. Thank you. :-)

Grandmère Mimi said...


I'm glad you're feeling better.

Kirstin said...


Thank you. :-)