Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Hidden Talent

From Buddhapalian (he gets to be a boat-rocker, lucky), who is explicitly not blaming Eileen. Oddly enough, my results are very accurate.

Your Hidden Talent

Your natural talent is interpersonal relations and dealing with people.
You communicate well and are able to bring disparate groups together.
Your calming presence helps everything go more smoothly.
People crave your praise and compliments.

I've been called a peace-maker, often, in a good way. And I'm learning how to use the instincts I have. I'm staying at the Apostle's for a couple of weeks, until I go to NOLA. She asked me last night, "Do you think you're learning what you need?" I answered, "Yes, I think so." I had not thought of myself as the leader I'm becoming. Most of what I'm learning has not come from books; though some of it has. I've been doing very intense soul-work, this past fall in particular. Some integration has just sort of quietly happened, while I was paying attention elsewhere.

Tears last night, for reasons I don't particularly want to go into—mostly because I haven't been as together as a student, as I wanted to be and thought I could be. I haven't had one calm or normal semester, and the things that have come up have mostly been beyond my control. But, am I learning to be the kind of human being I need to be? Yes, absolutely—and these past weeks—and last night—are part of that.

I'm learning to recognize and forgive my own limits—as well as rejoice in the strengths that I find. How can I help others do that, if I can't? We all need that kind of love.

You take it as it comes. I know that what I'm doing belongs to God, and is of God's initiative, even as it's my life. I forget, often, to trust that I don't have to be perfect. Everybody has weaknesses. Everybody has strengths.

Fortunately, these are some of mine.


FranIAm said...

Strength. Weakness. Dark. Light. Saint. Sinner. We are all of the above and it is how we let God work through us that brings the healing, thus the integrity.

Integrity is a word oft misused in our country with people equating it to honesty alone. It is the very wholeness that we aspire to, as you no doubt know.

I like your hidden talent result- how beautiful. I send you prayers and peace. As always, but especially at Advent let us all remember that something is about to be born. This can be a painful and difficult process, but the only way for life to begin.

My hidden talent will be unveiled later at my blog in a post I am struggling with!

FranIAm said...

I took this too and was both not surprised and maybe a little uncomfortable with how I came out, but knowing it is who I am.

Oh how to be who I am- I think I must just find my way to love the world.

Deep sigh. I am probably too tired to be this pensive!