This is for everyone who's not on my e-list.
I just got an e-mail from the program director in Riverside. Here is what she said:
Your PET scan is back and Dr G will talk to you on Aug 20 about it, he said he may continue on Biochemo but may also change to high dose, but wants to have a conversation with you.I called her back and she clarified: there are some increases in tumor activity, but the amount is questionable. This means two things: we're not really clear about whether the treatment is working, and I have a week to not know whether I have a whole new regimen (high-dose Interleukin-2, with its own set of side effects) to get used to.
How am I? Short of panicky. Oddly, both worried and trusting. Preparing; I can feel myself gearing up, both for change and for news I don't want.
Pray, of course. Be here. Love me in whatever ways you think of; I need that right now.