Thursday, February 22, 2007

Prayer request, again

I want something more than I have words for—which is part of the problem—and I’m terrified of not being good enough. That fear isn’t new to me, but this time it’s affecting my health. I hadn’t had a non-environmental asthma attack in years; I got one this morning, about an hour after I woke up. I did what I always do, medically, which generally works. I’ve been feeling sick all day.

My friends are fantastic; I’m in really good hands, and I’m getting better at asking for what I need. But I’m usually strong when I need to be. I’m feeling really dependent right now, and that’s uncomfortable.

Pray with me that I can hold my ball of nerves, and let it go.

4 comments:

Mimi said...

Lord have Mercy, Lord have Mercy, Lord have Mercy.

I wish I was close enough to take you out for a cup of tea!

Kirstin said...

I wish that too!

I feel better today. Thanks!

Eileen said...

((Kristin)) God is with you. He made you, and you are enough. (This is a mantra I say to myself quite often, because, I often suffer the same feelings - minus the asthma attacks!)

And when you aren't he gave you friends to be enough with you - that's how he means it to work!

Glad you are feeling better.

Kirstin said...

Thank you, friend.

I'm still wound up tighter than an eight-day watch, but I'm starting to see gifts again, too.

I'll remember your mantra. Thanks!