Ask, and ye shall receive...

I’m still wound up tighter than an eight-day watch, but I’m feeling better. I’m still talking fast—my telltale “I’m anxious” sign—but I feel calmer inside. The thing I was so afraid of is working itself out in a way that I think could be really amazing. And I’ve had a few good conversations about all of it.

Breathe. All shall be well.

I talked with my priest today, about new ways to be involved in my parish. He asked me to coordinate the younger-adults group. I said yes. I asked him if I could teach an adult ed class; I’m taking “Postmodern Christian Education” right now and need a project anyway. He was really enthusiastic—and now I’m going to lead a four-week series, during Easter season.

Eep! I'm up for it--but I've never done that before.

All this amid papers, reading, and my middler review (another eep). Back to work! Thank you all for your prayers; they are truly helpful.

Prayer request, again

I want something more than I have words for—which is part of the problem—and I’m terrified of not being good enough. That fear isn’t new to me, but this time it’s affecting my health. I hadn’t had a non-environmental asthma attack in years; I got one this morning, about an hour after I woke up. I did what I always do, medically, which generally works. I’ve been feeling sick all day.

My friends are fantastic; I’m in really good hands, and I’m getting better at asking for what I need. But I’m usually strong when I need to be. I’m feeling really dependent right now, and that’s uncomfortable.

Pray with me that I can hold my ball of nerves, and let it go.

Lent Begins

Here it is, Ash Wednesday morning, and I still don’t know what my discipline will be. There’s a lot that I need to work on: more regular prayer/silence time, better organization, less playing around on the internet, less self-doubt.

I think a good beginning would be getting up and going to Morning Prayer. Today, and all through Lent. I attend Eucharist almost daily; Evening Prayer sometimes. I never get up early in the morning. I’d have such a better start if I did.

There. I will do that. And I will work on the other topics. If I pray with them, they will change.

May your Lenten observances be fruitful.

This

...gave me a laugh!

Click on the title of this post; you will see my friend Max's take on a photograph from the event in Lodi last weekend.

The pic, from the San Francisco Chronicle, is unintentionally funny. The commentary by Max is priceless. :-)

Pray for me this week, please.

I'm meeting with my parish vocations committee this Thursday for the first time. I feel as ready as I possibly could feel right now--which is to say, totally and totally not--and I'm mostly trying not to be too anxious. Please keep me in your prayers.

I can breathe as deeply as I can, and speak as clearly as I can--and I know I have no control over this process. I just need to do it, and I do know it's time.

Honestly, I'm as excited as I'm nervous. I'm just trying not to let my nerves take over. I'm going to carve out extra prayer time this week, and just sit with everything.

I attended, and helped bake treats for, the celebration of the Episcopal Church in Lodi this past weekend. It was a really wonderful event. I will post about it sometime tomorrow; I took a three-hour nap this afternoon, woke up in the middle of dinner, and have to catch up on my homework.

CDSP Mission Trip to New Orleans

Click on the title of this post, and see what I did tonight instead of the homework I was supposed to do.

A group of us are planning a mission trip for Spring Break. Care to join, or otherwise support us?

Thank you!